Come on already

The deadline, finish line, light at the end of the tunnel appears then disappears and appears again. Like a bad relationship, the kind you know from the start is doomed, but still go on blindly because you want or need to (or think you do).. I don't mean the process and activity of comlpeting this research is doomed by any means, it is just the feeling that is similar.. I am probably making no sense.. Again this is probably true in sections of my thesis draft as well, but does that not depend on the reader - at least one little bit..? 

So I carry on, treading towards (sometimes leaping in false hope) the finishing line. So far, yet do close. 

So come on already..